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A life taken over

The co-pilot requested fennel tea - so fennel tea it was! 


The co-pilot requested fennel tea - so fennel tea it was!

Little L was five weeks last Tuesday, and somehow it feels as if she’s been with us forever. Life without her is a distant memory and seems as long ago as a restful night. At the same time everything is still brand new and she surprises us every day with another trait of her personality shining through. I could gaze at her for hours and hours, feeling so blessed and lucky to have her. Of course, she is the most perfect, amazing, beautiful and smart little creature the world has ever seen, and I am almost bursting with pride. Vowing to respect her privacy, I have to fight against the urge to plaster this blog with her pictures.

I was convinced that this wouldn’t happen to us – but even her pooping makes an interesting dinner conversation between Big M and me. Our first outing was seeing me in the back of the car with her (someone needed to watch her in her sleep…) and Big M lonely in the front, navigating the car through London’s busy roads. Although we swore not to ‘babytise’ our whole life and keep our beloved sports car, talks of selling the car and getting something more… erm… practical, are brought up every other day now. Of course, little L is not following any routine (nice suggestion, Gina Ford!), but mummy follows little L when she decides it’s sleeping time. And rather than accepting babysitting offers and grabbing the chance to sneak out for a quiet meal and some us-time, I cringe when thinking of other people touching my little angel, my gem, my coeur d’amour, mon chouchou, mein Liebstes…

Speaking of other people: Big M’s parents have been here to visit last weekend, and surprisingly, I found myself perfectly at ease with my mum-in-law cradling her grandchild, and even leaving my eyesight to take her for a little walk around the block in her pram. I would love to see them growing close; my own grandparents have been a solid rock in an unsettled childhood, and I can only hope for little L to have another pair of adults she can trust and confide in.

Slowly, I am coming to terms with the responsibility that swamped me the second I got to hold her for the first time.

For the interested reader: Our trip to bottle-feeding paradise was a cul-de-sack; every bottle feed needed to be finished with a breastfeed to settle the screaming bundle. We are back to pure breastfeeding now (plus the dummies and the tea), and at the moment, I can full-heartedly say: Yes! Breast is best…


  1. How lovely to hear that you are enjoying it just the way you should and deserve to. It will surely make for a happy little girl and grown up. Best wishes to your wonderful little family x

  2. Aww, I’m glad motherhood is finding you so nicely! My kid didn’t seem to have a routine but you’ll find they seem to tend to do things around the same times, or the pattern kind of repeats. You don’t realize this but in hindsight so it’s basically worthless. But good luck!

  3. I’m so pleased you’re happy. Luck little L to have a Mummy (and Daddy) who love her just the way they should. Keep on gazing and make the most of every second because (and I’m sure you’ve heard this before)…they really do grow up so quickly…. x

  4. I think the biggest thing that wifey has missed with our second is being able to nap when the baby naps. Toddler boy has other ideas!

    Impressed you’re keeping sane with the sleep deprivation though 🙂

  5. Hey! was wondering what you were up to! Glad to hear you are enjoying it so much. I have to say that I absolutely adored this time with my first. It was such a privileged and out of this world experience… and although having a second child is as amazing it is never is like the first time again. Regarding the car, I am not going to say I told you… but I did 🙂

  6. You’re making me all nostalgic for when my two were babies.
    Like Perfectly Happy Mum, I had the best time when they were babies.
    Enjoy every moment – even the more challenging ones!

  7. Wondered where you’d got to. Now I’ve found you I’ll have to spend hours catching up!

    Reading this post is making me all broody.

    I know it’s 5 weeks late but CONGRATULATIONS!

    Have added you to blogroll so I won’t lose you.

  8. Thank you!! I am bouncing from totally thrilled to cross-eyed to completely irritated and back. Have to admit that I shed a little tear when sorting out her already outgrown babygrows. She will leave me soon, boo-hoo…

  9. Hi MM, I have been reading regularly and meaning to comment for ages… firstly thanks v much for the award, was v chuffed to receive that! Great to hear that you are back in the swing of breastfeeding – i really felt for you as i had horrible time to begin with with my first but it just gets better and better! And fennel tea?? – i have heard of the breastfeeding mother drinking it, but not the baby! – does it work?? Great blog, will follow with enthusiasm as we are both with new babies and always good to hear how others are getting on! x

  10. Glad you’re enjoying this very special time! Had to chuckle about the bottle cul de sac. My memory is patchy, but it made me remember that my little one at 5 months decided she would not have any bottle from me or even anyone else while at home. Admittedly, at that time breast feeding was easy peasy and I really didn’t care. They sure know what they want!

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