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All I want is here in my arms

It’s funny how you think that with the second child, you’d have it all figured out, only because you’ve been there and done it before. Meehhh. How wrong can you go?

Again, new motherhood proves to be full of surprises and my value system has taken another kick in the backside, forcing it to gently shift. OK, ‘gently shift’ doesn’t quite fit the bill. The world looks rather different from what it used to look.

For example, I don’t want to shop. Neither for myself, nor do I want to swamp my children in stuff. I am feeling over commercialised, consume terrorised, outsold.

We have just moved into our newly renovated abode in the centre of our beloved London, yet I’d happily move to the freezing cold and dark Scandinavian countryside tomorrow. I am craving space, quiet and air.

I have turned from a cheese-scoffing foodie into a dairy-free nutrition snubber. Though that might be thanks to the baby blues business. Well, better than inhaling the chocolates out of sheer despair.

When the nanny resigned after only two and half months, the thought of being homebound with two kids initially scared me. However, it turned out to be a blessing in disguise – I am going to have much more time with the girls. It’s all I want at the moment anyway.


  1. Lovely to see a post from you 🙂

    What a really beautiful baby she is, absolutely gorgeous.

    You sound “better” in yourself, hopefully that means you are somehow getting more sleep? I hope so.

    Some people say the second child is easier….I would say it is in some ways but is also just “different”. And, as with the first child, you just never know how you will feel. Every child changes you a little bit though in my opinion.

    I love this post actually….you sound content. Take care XX

  2. Camille says

    I will gladly take over your place in London…and you can get away to our home here in the states ;).

  3. Jo Avery says

    Lovely post. I hear you! Things change. Wants and needs change. But that’s no bad thing. Enjoy this next phase of your life with your two lovely girls. I wish I could bottle it, as it’s going too fast for me.

  4. I think that the whole thing about being human and a mum is all about accepting change and rolling with it. You are in a wonderful position to be able to make the best of something. Enjoy it and look for the joy in the everyday.

  5. Hi,

    I have been reading about your journey with your two girls. The picture in your latest post melts my heart as I know that feeling. I am 7 monhs pregnant with my second and I look forward to that instant hit of love but I also sympathise with how tough it must be.

    Good luck with it all,


  6. The difference between having no children and having one child is huge, but I was totally unprepared for the enormous shift from one to two. I was more relaxed about physically caring for another baby, but there’s so much more to think about when you’re juggling two.

    Enjoy spending time with your family x

  7. Having two is definitely a huge adjustment but you sound as if you are starting to enjoy it. I think once the second one stops being a newborn it becomes a lot easier – I remember enjoying that time. Hope the baby blues continue to fade. x

  8. Hello 🙂 I love how you express the ‘over-ness’ of everything. I agree – it’s just all too much. Maybe you need to head to the country for a weekend?! I agree with Simone though – you do sound better in yourself and it shines through actually. Plus I am sure there is an element of getting past that hard early stage. She looks beautiful – honestly what a gorgeous face. Lou x

  9. You sound content, happy and warm at home with your girls. Maybe the nanny resigning was a blessing – one less person to organise! Enjoy.

  10. Aww lovely post! This is something very hard to explain isn’t it but I know exactly what you mean. These years fly by too so it is so nice to make the most of it when you can. Enjoy and relax, there’s plenty of time for the rest xx

  11. I think you just have to go with the flow and not try to do too much. I remember when my first two were little and I felt like I was always wanting to leave the park because sitting around (even though watching them play) was wasting time. A trip to the shops had to be done as quickly as possible though Lord knows why as we were just heading home again. If I could do that part again I would just slow down and take things as they come. x

  12. Such a lovely post, motherhood is such a blessing. I loved reading this post. It reminded me to enjoy the little things and you’re right about the commercial world it can get to us if we are not careful.

  13. It’s great to see you back and blogging and overcoming the horrible reflux. Hope the pediatrician suggestion proved helpful.

    On the nanny, and for what it’s worth, I felt very similarly when I was made redundant at Christmas. But it’s turned out to be absolutely for the best.

    And I don’t know if it’s something in the air or just a violent reaction to the excesses of Christmas, but a lot of people seem to be withdrawing from kiddy commercialism too. At least, if the crazy reaction on my new blog is anything to go by!

    It would be lovely to meet up, like we keep saying we will. And it looks like we both might actually have time to do it now! Hx

  14. She is beautiful! You will never regret the time you spend with your children only the time away.

  15. Elliotandme says

    Lovely picture, and lovely post. At a time in the year where everyone seems to want to reinvent themselves it’s lovely to see you just consolidating that family is what is most important. I’d have to agree, and what a beautiful family you have.

  16. I know how you feel. We were completely content in the middle of Zurich until our first son arrived. Ever since then, I’ve craved open spaces and the countryside … well, I’ve just craved home and everything familiar, really. Just to step outside our front door and in to a garden rather than in to the path of an oncoming tram! Hope you find some peace and air soon x

  17. Life changes just enjoy the moment. I am delighted that you sound much happier. This is a lively heartfelt post

  18. Laura Perks says

    You are not alone. Everything you’ve said rings true with me following my second daughter.
    With my first, dressing her and myself took utmost priority. I now have no desire to buy “things” for us all. Aside from the occasional splurge. It’s a release, a freedom that Im enjoying.
    With my second I went on a drastically restricted diet, I now view food very differently.
    A day alone with the girls was an idea that terrified me, until I realised the feeling of actually doing it was incredibly empowering, and actually quite lovely.
    The thought, when the prospect arose of a move overseas – to a large house, good weather, and not much to do, was enticing instead of scary.

    Thank you for your honesty. Other Mums need to know this stuff, these feelings. How you can change SO much, and sometimes how unnerving that can be.

    My second daughter is a year old now, and Im getting glimpses of the old me again sometimes ……. albeit well mixed in with a very new me.

    Vive la change and all that jazz xxxxxx

  19. She is gorgeous.
    Hopefully you will get plenty of sleep now.
    If you fancy some country air – come and visit us.

  20. Hi new reader, great post. I have also been feeling a little like this recently, like perhaps doing one of those experiments where you try not to spend for a year and go live in a yurt. However I will probably stick with eating less cake and buying less shoes.

  21. mamma anji says

    Enjoy these precious days – my second started full time school this year and I miss her being my baby

    p.s Baby is gorgeous x

  22. I think I’m even more unorganised with my 2nd child but definitely more wise and hopefully a bit better a parent

  23. I am on my fourth child and I still haven’t figured it out. Just came across your blog and loving having a snoop.

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