Getting fit, Yummy Mummy

A new path

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It’s been more than four months since I returned from my little solitary adventure to Kamalaya. When I had just arrived back in London, I felt like a changed person. Not only that, I felt like I wanted to change the world. And a little surprisingly – to me at least – I still do.

It hasn’t been easy to keep steady on the paddleboard. London can be rougher a sea to navigate than the Gulf of Thailand. But I’m still standing. I am still more mindful, more present and kinder than I have been before. And if I’m not, I am trying.

I am much kinder to myself, too. I still haven’t had a single cup of coffee since I am back.

We have been talking about changes to the way our family works. We are not quite there yet – some things just take time – but there will be big changes eventually.

Post yoga hugging

Post yoga hugging

At Kamalaya, I had started practicing yoga again. I first practiced yoga more than ten years ago, but I have never been an avid yogi. There seemed to be a spiritual side to it that kept its doors locked to me. When practicing, I quickly reached my limits within yoga, finding it a little bit exclusive, too esoteric and in a way elitist. With the exception of pre- and postnatal yoga, I never managed to stick to a weekly, let lone daily practice.

But all this changed. For the first time since standing on a yoga mat, I understood the meditative component of yoga. Maybe I had been too nervous, too rushed, or even too anxious to let go before. Whatever the reason for this shift, I have been hooked ever since.

I don’t always make it to class, but I regularly roll out my mat in the living room – there is always time for yoga before the kids get up, when the little one is down for a nap, or even when the two of them are playing right next to me. Yoga has the ability to keep me grounded. As much as it opens my body, it opens my heart. It makes me happy and content in a way other exercise never could. Most likely because yoga is so much more than just exercise. It’s a way of life.

Back in Thailand, taking in the breathtakingly beautiful view from the yoga pavilion, becoming a yoga teacher briefly crossed my mind. It was a fleeting thought. Because why would I become a yoga teacher? That’s about as likely as becoming an actress, own a café or become an astronaut, right? On the other hand… Why not?

Why wouldn’t I want to share what’s making me happy?

I know I have got a long way in front of me, but it doesn’t scare me. There is a lot to learn, and I am looking forward to the road ahead.

Namaste! 🙂


  1. Oh wow, amazing post and we must do what we love and a lot of different things we love. I wrote recently about how kids made me more creative and this is true of following my dreams and (changed dreams since they arrived) too. You’ve made me want to start yoga again. Thank you x

  2. That’s fantastic 🙂 I think that is the best way to approach life. 🙂 I went to a yoga retreat in Goa once….Patnem Beach I think. was really lovely. 🙂

  3. Patti says

    I was right where you are about 18 months ago – wondering about becoming a yoga teacher. I started practicing again in September 2012 after my third child was born. I found a new studio and fell in love with yoga all over again. I did teacher training and now I teach five times a week at the studio where I did my training and practice daily. It is a lifestyle. I think of it as my daily re-set button. 🙂 Good luck to you!

  4. Helloitsgemma says

    So much of this post sings out to me. What an amazing opportunity. We need time from the everyday to rebalance take stock. I think you new path sounds great. You have the determination and are in a good space to get to where you want to be. want to be more mindful, I enjoy yoga but struggle with the spiritual side. Often my mind is just too busy or it’s more spiritual than I feel comfortable with. There’s definitely more to be gained from it than I have. I’m glad it has given you so much.

  5. What a fantastic turn of events! I love yoga but my hyper mobility makes it a perilous thing to do hence I finally resorted to Pilates – the one thing I could never quite stomach before little G. These kids change us in so many ways! The coffeee thing? I’m in awe! I don’t know how you can do it, but then I’m Italian so coffee is our equivalent of water I guess x

  6. I wish you a ton of luck on your new path(s). I am very far from being a dedicated yogi but I use to try to do five minutes practice every morning, sadly lately I have let this slide and mentally I notice the difference – I badly need to reignite the habit. I am SO impressed that you haven’t had a coffee for so long. 😉

  7. You sound very much at peace with the world. Good luck with your plans x

  8. I do weekly yoga, with a brilliant teacher. Miss it horribly if I can’t go one week. Makes a big difference to my life.

  9. Absolutely, why shouldn’t you? What’s stopping you? I think it’s awesome and you should totally go for it!

  10. Ali says

    Good for you! I have recently discovered yoga again after trying it several years ago and not “getting” it. I am now in a place in my life where it fits with who I am and who I want to be.

  11. Whatever works for you, I say! I love yoga, and, as you say, why not. I would certainly come to your classes, so keep us posted!

  12. Lovely, lovely post…. I’ve really got back into yoga too, it makes me feel open and happy and in the moment too. Even if it’s only five downward dogs a day, it still brings me back into focus; the body and breath are such powerful tools! X

  13. April says

    Great post and I’m so happy Kamalaya has sparked your path for becoming more grounded and happy! It did with me. I had never done much yoga before going to this sanctuary in Thailand and it changed my life too. I’ve been back three times and for the last 6 months I’m training to be a yoga teacher in London. Theres a woman on my course in her 60’s and its never too late. Best thing I ever did!
    Best things in life come when you follow your passion from your heart
    Om shanti shanti shanti xxx

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